VERY LAST EXPANSION X

Well its almost here, the very last expansion. I am really looking forward to it as i feel like I have overcome a massive hurdle in my life and all is left is my nipple reconstruction. I am looking forward to the new year and getting used to my new body, my confidence is growing day by day and I do feel so much better about my appearance. I had a lovely Christmas with my family, and I have my wedding to my amazing fiancee to look forward to in the new year.

GOOD NEWS X

Well I had really good news yesterday a modelling agency got in contact asking if I wanted to be the new face of M&S post mastectomy bra range. How exciting for me :) everything I wanted to do I have achieved much more I am so proud of myself. I cant imagine going in to Marks and Spencer's and seeing my face on the box, how odd would that be, but what an achievement for me. Things are looking up, just one more important phone call and Iwill be over the moon. If everyone had posative thoughts for me over the weekend I am sure that I will recive the call we have been waiting for x

THE END IS NEAR!! DOUBLE MASTECTOMY

Feeling rather low today, not feeling to great about my new breasts. I seam to have more ups and downs now than I did when I had my operation, I think its because I know I have to get used to the way I look and that's hard to deal with when I have one breast a lot higher than the other. They say its fluid from where I had my hematoma and it will go down in time but I want it to go down now :( so many questions.. why cant they draw the fluid off?? why leave me like this??why why why?? you can see in the picture that one is a lot higher that the other, it looks like I have no breast on the right side. I suppose I am glad for one thing though is that I never had go through what a lot of woman go through. So while I try and keep my chin up and think of the positives, I will look forward to the end of the line and I can put the mastectomy behind me forever.......Dream of getting married on the beatiful island of the BAHAMAS X

Double Mastectomy catch up!!

This is the where I dream to be in may 2012

Hi all feeling a lot better today, I have phoned my breast surgeon as I feel like my right side of my breast is a lot larger :( they said its swelling from the fluid left over due to my drains being taken out to soon. I hope that they can do something with it as it looks so deformed. I am very grateful that I have been able to have this opportunity to remove my breast before it was to late. I am very excited at the moment because me and dean have entered in to a competition to win a wedding to the Bahamas, the closing date is tomorrow so I am hoping that we have a phone call later on in the week to say we have won. I would be over the moon if we won the wedding what a great end to a very tearful and hard year xx

http://bit.ly/nmpytN or text their Bridal Number "BAHAMAS 16W194" to 88833

Please can you vote for me and my fiancee to win a wedding to the Bahamas, as you know we have both been through a lot this last few weeks and to win the wedding would be amazing. Please click on the link xx

Final expansion!!

Had my 3rd expansion today, all went well but I feel rather abnormal. My body has changed so much over the last few weeks its taking a lot of getting used to, I look like Jordan! I really didn't want to look fake but to have breasts again without the worry of cancer is a good outcome. I do feel like I am going to go pop my breasts are so tight at the moment, I am hoping that the tightness goes down rather soon. I am not going back to hospital now till the 9th January which will seam like forever then they will put the final 40mil in, i will be left then for a another 3 weeks then I will return to have my taps taken out. Not long now till all this will be a distant memory.......

8 WEEKS AFTER MY OPERATION X

At 28 I was faced with the most awful decision to remove my breasts and to do it electively was even worse but I always knew that if I never choose to have my operation then the out come might of been much worse for me.
Now 8 weeks after my operation, I cant believe how quick I have recovered its amazing. 8 weeks ago I was dreading the day when I would loose my breasts, the part of my body that I felt made me a woman, I was wrong, you dont need breasts to make you a woman....

 Now I know that after being through my operation, I am still a woman and I dont feel any different. My new breasts are part of me now they make me who I am, a strong happy woman. For the woman out there who are afraid of the unknow and what to expect take it from me you will be fine its not a scary as what some people make out. Ok it took me a while to get used to my new body, i did have ups and downs but now i have one more expansion left and i am already really pleased with my outcome.

Double Mastectomy

MAKING THE RIGHT DECISION FOR YOU!!

 

My family history goes back many years, my mum was only 31 when she first had breast cancer, then at 41 she went for a routine mamogram only to be told that the cancer had returned and it was very agressive. Then only 4 years ago my mum was hit with the devastating news again the cancer had returned. I have grew up with the C word in my life so when i was asked if i wanted the genetic testing I jumped at the chance. I had the genetic testing when I was only 23 years old, then 6 weeks later I returned to the genetic center to find out I had the BRACA 1 genetic disorder.

This picture was taken at the pink ball 2011, it was only 2 weeks after my operation.

Standing next to me is my very brave mum Julie, then my lovely nan and my little sister.

I had my double mastectomy on the 14th September 2011. When I woke up my loving fiancee was standing over me kissed my forehead and he said I was a brave girl, I never knew I was until that moment. It was the most scariest thing I have ever had to go through but now 2 months on I am fit and well and on the road to recovory.